More on Weight

 So there haven't been any major run to the bathroom events yet... but the days not over with. I've gone, but nothing that bad.
 Friday night I was watching TV. The show "I used to be fat" came on. I don't know what the girls name was, but she lost 90 lbs really fast with the boot camp trainer.
 I know that I don't need to lose 90 lbs., but in the beginning she was really whiny and crying, maybe for attention, or maybe just getting emotional. But damn, be grateful, mommy and daddy can afford a trainer like that, let alone you live in this huge house, and can even afford to eat right if you choose to.On top of everything else you get to have your story on TV. Do you know how many people can't afford those things? You're wandering around being completely ungrateful.
 My dad can't help me, he has Alzheimer's, and a limited income.I can't even think of asking him for help, I have no right to, it's just wrong.
 I can barely afford rent and a car payment, can't afford the gym, barley afford to feed myself on cheap crap at the store, and you can whine about having to work out.
 I run around my neighborhood, and have to do push ups and crunches, and you're complaining because your private trainer is pushing you too hard. I would love to have a trainer come push me to hard.
 On top of that if I had a trainer I would like one to push me, with the one and only that I worked with 6 yrs ago, she really didn't push my in the 2 times a week for 8 wks that we worked together. I also worked out 4 more days at the gym a week without her. I used the exercises that she gave me and they didn't do anything. I had to run 3 miles a day last time that I finally lost any weight. I lost 30, gained 10, and that's why I'm trying to lose weight now.
 As of this morning I weighed 138lbs. Almost 2 wks ago it was 145lbs. My goal is 118lbs. At least, I'm 5ft 1 inches, so it should probably be even lower than that. We'll have to see what I can do. I haven't weight 118lbs since I was 13, so wish me luck because I'm 28 yrs old, and have a ways to go. My next goal is 133lbs. I'm trying to make my goals smaller, even though I keep thinking more about the long term ones, and it keeps splitting my focus.
 Oh what a disaster it is sometimes.

TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine