Heart Shaped Sunglasses

 Yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought that it would be. I just stuck to not eating anything while I was at work all day. It wasn't as hard as I thought that it would be. On my lunch break I went to Target and tried on a few pairs of pants, no good changes there, still same old size 9. Before they were skin tight and I could barely fit them over my ass, Now size 9's fit slightly lose when I try them on, but 7 is too small.
 It still depressed me, so I made a promise to myself that I wasn't going to try on jeans until I get to 130lbs at least, maybe wait even longer. I took a laxative right before I left work yesterday.
 When I got home last night I made pancakes for dinner. I didn't have any I wasn't hungry. I keep thinking that it will make me gain weight, so I really don't want to eat anything, even though my stomach still gets hungry.
 I did end up having a mini dance party in the kitchen with my headphones and heart shaped sunglasses on. I was getting bored just standing there waiting for everything to cook. My fiance walked in the house and stood there watching me until I turned around and discovered that he was there... he thought it was pretty funny, but for some reason I was feeling a little crazy.
 I didn't go to the bathroom accept to go pee. I took another one right before bed, then I woke up having to go really badly. Not so bad I thought that I was going to lose control, but my stomach hurt.
 I weighted 135.5lbs. So I guess that I am having some success. I just want to see how longs it's going to take. Plus I'm slowly adding more exercise again, I don't want to have any accidents though, so I'm taking my time with it.
 Thursday at work I'm supposedly going to have a lot of exercise because I guess they want me and they yard girl to learn some truck survey thingy. They're even sending someone from my company's corp to teach us about it....lovely. I'm looking forward to it a little bit because sometimes I get tired of being in the office.
 Some of these guys make it a big deal about when I'm in the yard, I have to explain to them that I used to be outside all the time, it's not that big a deal. I need to start walking around out there more though, I need the exercise a bit. Right now it's just way too freezing cold, so I have to wear layers.
 That means that I have to choose my clothes Wednesday night so that I'm not cold when I'm at work.

TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine