Sorry that I haven't been around, I've been super busy with work, and my stomach...lol. Last night I made Beef Stroganaff from scratch, it was yummy. Or at least what I could eat was yummy.
I've noticed that my weight is now at a stand still. I will have good days and bad days with it, so I don't know what to do, I guess start exercising when I can.
I've been drinking a ton of water, been feeling pretty dehydrated lately. It all comes out anyway when I have to go to the bathroom, but I'm at least trying.
I've been noticing what people call sleep disturbances, where I wake up, or sleep lightly, and almost anything will wake me up. I'm so tired by the time that I have to go to work that it feels like a task just getting dressed. Once I'm awake I'm definitely up, but I can't seem to want to do anything.
Like this morning I didn't have to do much accept get dressed, wash my face and brush my teeth because I took a shower before I went to bed, still feels like a task and I'm waiting until the last minute to get dressed.
Otherwise things are good. Over the weekend last week I slept a lot, when I couldn't sleep at one point I put together a gingerbread house. Might do another one this weekend too. My fiance wants to go out to dinner with some friends, but I don't know, kinda depends on how I'm feeling.
Also over the weekend the espresso maker broke, we tried taking it apart, but that didn't do anything to help us. So I talked to a guy that fixes them and he said that it would be about $35 to fix it. So I'm supposed to take it to him this weekend. When that broke I was peeved. I don't blame anyone, sometimes shit just breaks and needs to be fixed. I just have to go to Starbucks for the next few days to get my mocha's I guess. I like the ones that I make better, but there's nothing that I can do right now about it... boo!
As I was about to tell you. I have this love for food, but don't seem to want to eat it. I'm losing my appetite I guess. I'll start eating and about half way through things I don't want it anymore or I'm to full. Most of the time I'll go the whole day without wanting to eat. Maybe going to the bathroom so much is what's doing this to me.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Work, and Other Things
So yesterday was OK. No great events at work. I found out that the audit that we will be learning to do with the driver equipment is going to be pretty invasive, looks like I'm gonna have to get some coveralls. It sucks but there's nothing I can do about it right now. It's gonna be part of the job I guess.
I'm going to make sure that they are paying for coveralls. If not well I'm gonna start dressing like a scrub when I go to work.
I'm not required to do it all the time, but I'm sure that the yard girl will gladly accept my help with this. Since neither of us know anything about these trucks.
Anyhow, we ended up having Mexican food from a place down the street, and my stomach didn't like it, it was bloaty all night, along with bloating because I started my period. My stomach is really starting to reject me a lot lately, along with the laxatives. I don't want to have to take more than 2 a day but I might have to.
This seems to be the only way that I successfully lose weight, all but starving myself to get there, and exercising like I'm insane. Even taking Alli doesn't seem to be making much difference, so I end up having to take laxatives all the time to see any dent in my weight.
This shit sucks. I wish it were easier to lose weight but it's not.
Then there's always the people that say that I'm not fat, I think that I am, I know that I am, so I'm fighting for the skinny body that I want. Is there really something wrong with that?
I can't afford a personal trainer, I can barely afford Alli and I'm stuck in this rut, where nothing is happening for me... ugh.
I'm cranky today. Plus the computers at work keep acting funny so it seems like there's nothing that I can do all day, but pray for the clock to go faster. This is also irritating.
I'm hoping that after tomorrow I will understand the shit they want us to do, so that maybe I will have something else to do at work. Even though it's cold outside at least it will make the day go by a little bit faster. I'll even make a point of working with the yard girl so that we can help each other understand this. The guy that's supposed to be teaching us will only be there about an hour or so to teach us. You would think that because they made such a big stink about this that they would send the guy for a longer amount of time.
I'm hoping that the drivers will be able to help us with some of this shit. Even though we're doing this because they don't trust all the drivers anymore... ugh what a mess.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
I'm going to make sure that they are paying for coveralls. If not well I'm gonna start dressing like a scrub when I go to work.
I'm not required to do it all the time, but I'm sure that the yard girl will gladly accept my help with this. Since neither of us know anything about these trucks.
Anyhow, we ended up having Mexican food from a place down the street, and my stomach didn't like it, it was bloaty all night, along with bloating because I started my period. My stomach is really starting to reject me a lot lately, along with the laxatives. I don't want to have to take more than 2 a day but I might have to.
This seems to be the only way that I successfully lose weight, all but starving myself to get there, and exercising like I'm insane. Even taking Alli doesn't seem to be making much difference, so I end up having to take laxatives all the time to see any dent in my weight.
This shit sucks. I wish it were easier to lose weight but it's not.
Then there's always the people that say that I'm not fat, I think that I am, I know that I am, so I'm fighting for the skinny body that I want. Is there really something wrong with that?
I can't afford a personal trainer, I can barely afford Alli and I'm stuck in this rut, where nothing is happening for me... ugh.
I'm cranky today. Plus the computers at work keep acting funny so it seems like there's nothing that I can do all day, but pray for the clock to go faster. This is also irritating.
I'm hoping that after tomorrow I will understand the shit they want us to do, so that maybe I will have something else to do at work. Even though it's cold outside at least it will make the day go by a little bit faster. I'll even make a point of working with the yard girl so that we can help each other understand this. The guy that's supposed to be teaching us will only be there about an hour or so to teach us. You would think that because they made such a big stink about this that they would send the guy for a longer amount of time.
I'm hoping that the drivers will be able to help us with some of this shit. Even though we're doing this because they don't trust all the drivers anymore... ugh what a mess.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Heart Shaped Sunglasses
Yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought that it would be. I just stuck to not eating anything while I was at work all day. It wasn't as hard as I thought that it would be. On my lunch break I went to Target and tried on a few pairs of pants, no good changes there, still same old size 9. Before they were skin tight and I could barely fit them over my ass, Now size 9's fit slightly lose when I try them on, but 7 is too small.
It still depressed me, so I made a promise to myself that I wasn't going to try on jeans until I get to 130lbs at least, maybe wait even longer. I took a laxative right before I left work yesterday.
When I got home last night I made pancakes for dinner. I didn't have any I wasn't hungry. I keep thinking that it will make me gain weight, so I really don't want to eat anything, even though my stomach still gets hungry.
I did end up having a mini dance party in the kitchen with my headphones and heart shaped sunglasses on. I was getting bored just standing there waiting for everything to cook. My fiance walked in the house and stood there watching me until I turned around and discovered that he was there... he thought it was pretty funny, but for some reason I was feeling a little crazy.
I didn't go to the bathroom accept to go pee. I took another one right before bed, then I woke up having to go really badly. Not so bad I thought that I was going to lose control, but my stomach hurt.
I weighted 135.5lbs. So I guess that I am having some success. I just want to see how longs it's going to take. Plus I'm slowly adding more exercise again, I don't want to have any accidents though, so I'm taking my time with it.
Thursday at work I'm supposedly going to have a lot of exercise because I guess they want me and they yard girl to learn some truck survey thingy. They're even sending someone from my company's corp to teach us about it....lovely. I'm looking forward to it a little bit because sometimes I get tired of being in the office.
Some of these guys make it a big deal about when I'm in the yard, I have to explain to them that I used to be outside all the time, it's not that big a deal. I need to start walking around out there more though, I need the exercise a bit. Right now it's just way too freezing cold, so I have to wear layers.
That means that I have to choose my clothes Wednesday night so that I'm not cold when I'm at work.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
It still depressed me, so I made a promise to myself that I wasn't going to try on jeans until I get to 130lbs at least, maybe wait even longer. I took a laxative right before I left work yesterday.
When I got home last night I made pancakes for dinner. I didn't have any I wasn't hungry. I keep thinking that it will make me gain weight, so I really don't want to eat anything, even though my stomach still gets hungry.
I did end up having a mini dance party in the kitchen with my headphones and heart shaped sunglasses on. I was getting bored just standing there waiting for everything to cook. My fiance walked in the house and stood there watching me until I turned around and discovered that he was there... he thought it was pretty funny, but for some reason I was feeling a little crazy.
I didn't go to the bathroom accept to go pee. I took another one right before bed, then I woke up having to go really badly. Not so bad I thought that I was going to lose control, but my stomach hurt.
I weighted 135.5lbs. So I guess that I am having some success. I just want to see how longs it's going to take. Plus I'm slowly adding more exercise again, I don't want to have any accidents though, so I'm taking my time with it.
Thursday at work I'm supposedly going to have a lot of exercise because I guess they want me and they yard girl to learn some truck survey thingy. They're even sending someone from my company's corp to teach us about it....lovely. I'm looking forward to it a little bit because sometimes I get tired of being in the office.
Some of these guys make it a big deal about when I'm in the yard, I have to explain to them that I used to be outside all the time, it's not that big a deal. I need to start walking around out there more though, I need the exercise a bit. Right now it's just way too freezing cold, so I have to wear layers.
That means that I have to choose my clothes Wednesday night so that I'm not cold when I'm at work.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Monday, January 10, 2011
Good Morning
Good morning,
Last night I didn't make anything that great for dinner. Just sloppy Joe's and pasta with green beans. I ate a lot of the green beans, and not nearly enough of the rest like I usually do.
I did make a butterfly shaped pound cake with chocolate chips and sprinkles for dessert. I had one tiny piece, there was no frosting on it, so it wasn't too bad.
According to the scale I am 137lbs now. Its a start to the flush that I am doing. I feel better and less bloated which is good. I guess the main thing is that I am able to hurry the digestion process. Damn near every time I eat anything I feel guilty about it. Like there's someone out there judging me. Years ago I had a boyfriend that thought that I was flabby when I weighed about 125lb. He was always picking on me any time that I ate anything. If he wasn't being a cheap ass about paying $1 for a burger, he was busy calling me fat for eating it. That was years ago and I guess I haven't let go of being judged.
Right now my sweetie loves me the way I am. I'm just not satisfied with the way that I look right now.
Sometimes I just wish I could make my love for food, and wanting to eat it go away. I want to be pretty and skinny. I also wish that I wasn't so concerned with it, but I am.
I wish that society didn't pound things like this into our heads the way that they do.
Yesterday after I got home I had to go quite a few times, but no having to run as of yet. I also had to go this morning too.
I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to do all of this around work, because I don't want to stink up the bathroom all the time, I have to share it with other people. I guess just in the later part of the day or something I'll take my pills, not eat until around then.
This morning when I woke up there was nothing weird, no stomach aches or anything, so I think that I'm right on track.
I didn't want to get out of bed though, it was just too cold. Sometimes I wish that things were easier and that I was a stay at home wife, or at least could work from home.
I like starting work early because I get off of work earlier, but I don't like waking up hella early though. I've even started waking up earlier on the weekends because of it. I guess that's not such a bad thing when you look at it, but I still don't like doing it, because then I feel hella bored at 6 am on a Friday or Saturday morning. No one else is up.
Last night I didn't make anything that great for dinner. Just sloppy Joe's and pasta with green beans. I ate a lot of the green beans, and not nearly enough of the rest like I usually do.
I did make a butterfly shaped pound cake with chocolate chips and sprinkles for dessert. I had one tiny piece, there was no frosting on it, so it wasn't too bad.
Right now my sweetie loves me the way I am. I'm just not satisfied with the way that I look right now.
Sometimes I just wish I could make my love for food, and wanting to eat it go away. I want to be pretty and skinny. I also wish that I wasn't so concerned with it, but I am.
I wish that society didn't pound things like this into our heads the way that they do.
Yesterday after I got home I had to go quite a few times, but no having to run as of yet. I also had to go this morning too.
I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to do all of this around work, because I don't want to stink up the bathroom all the time, I have to share it with other people. I guess just in the later part of the day or something I'll take my pills, not eat until around then.
This morning when I woke up there was nothing weird, no stomach aches or anything, so I think that I'm right on track.
I didn't want to get out of bed though, it was just too cold. Sometimes I wish that things were easier and that I was a stay at home wife, or at least could work from home.
I like starting work early because I get off of work earlier, but I don't like waking up hella early though. I've even started waking up earlier on the weekends because of it. I guess that's not such a bad thing when you look at it, but I still don't like doing it, because then I feel hella bored at 6 am on a Friday or Saturday morning. No one else is up.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
More on Weight
So there haven't been any major run to the bathroom events yet... but the days not over with. I've gone, but nothing that bad.
Friday night I was watching TV. The show "I used to be fat" came on. I don't know what the girls name was, but she lost 90 lbs really fast with the boot camp trainer.
I know that I don't need to lose 90 lbs., but in the beginning she was really whiny and crying, maybe for attention, or maybe just getting emotional. But damn, be grateful, mommy and daddy can afford a trainer like that, let alone you live in this huge house, and can even afford to eat right if you choose to.On top of everything else you get to have your story on TV. Do you know how many people can't afford those things? You're wandering around being completely ungrateful.
My dad can't help me, he has Alzheimer's, and a limited income.I can't even think of asking him for help, I have no right to, it's just wrong.
I can barely afford rent and a car payment, can't afford the gym, barley afford to feed myself on cheap crap at the store, and you can whine about having to work out.
I run around my neighborhood, and have to do push ups and crunches, and you're complaining because your private trainer is pushing you too hard. I would love to have a trainer come push me to hard.
On top of that if I had a trainer I would like one to push me, with the one and only that I worked with 6 yrs ago, she really didn't push my in the 2 times a week for 8 wks that we worked together. I also worked out 4 more days at the gym a week without her. I used the exercises that she gave me and they didn't do anything. I had to run 3 miles a day last time that I finally lost any weight. I lost 30, gained 10, and that's why I'm trying to lose weight now.
As of this morning I weighed 138lbs. Almost 2 wks ago it was 145lbs. My goal is 118lbs. At least, I'm 5ft 1 inches, so it should probably be even lower than that. We'll have to see what I can do. I haven't weight 118lbs since I was 13, so wish me luck because I'm 28 yrs old, and have a ways to go. My next goal is 133lbs. I'm trying to make my goals smaller, even though I keep thinking more about the long term ones, and it keeps splitting my focus.
Oh what a disaster it is sometimes.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Friday night I was watching TV. The show "I used to be fat" came on. I don't know what the girls name was, but she lost 90 lbs really fast with the boot camp trainer.
I know that I don't need to lose 90 lbs., but in the beginning she was really whiny and crying, maybe for attention, or maybe just getting emotional. But damn, be grateful, mommy and daddy can afford a trainer like that, let alone you live in this huge house, and can even afford to eat right if you choose to.On top of everything else you get to have your story on TV. Do you know how many people can't afford those things? You're wandering around being completely ungrateful.
My dad can't help me, he has Alzheimer's, and a limited income.I can't even think of asking him for help, I have no right to, it's just wrong.
I can barely afford rent and a car payment, can't afford the gym, barley afford to feed myself on cheap crap at the store, and you can whine about having to work out.
I run around my neighborhood, and have to do push ups and crunches, and you're complaining because your private trainer is pushing you too hard. I would love to have a trainer come push me to hard.
On top of that if I had a trainer I would like one to push me, with the one and only that I worked with 6 yrs ago, she really didn't push my in the 2 times a week for 8 wks that we worked together. I also worked out 4 more days at the gym a week without her. I used the exercises that she gave me and they didn't do anything. I had to run 3 miles a day last time that I finally lost any weight. I lost 30, gained 10, and that's why I'm trying to lose weight now.
As of this morning I weighed 138lbs. Almost 2 wks ago it was 145lbs. My goal is 118lbs. At least, I'm 5ft 1 inches, so it should probably be even lower than that. We'll have to see what I can do. I haven't weight 118lbs since I was 13, so wish me luck because I'm 28 yrs old, and have a ways to go. My next goal is 133lbs. I'm trying to make my goals smaller, even though I keep thinking more about the long term ones, and it keeps splitting my focus.
Oh what a disaster it is sometimes.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Diet, Bathroom Trips, Phone Problems and Fender Benders
Onto other subject like my diet, I decided yesterday that fast wouldn't be the best thing for me because lately I have no will power. That and why would I want to be making recipes that I can't eat. So I did cook and eat last night, but not too much food. Maybe if I keep tabs on my portions it won't be too bad.
When it comes to what I weigh I know that those thing fluctuate, but a laxative always seems to help. Also a lot of people think that they will wipe out all the nutrients, well I have been taking a daily vitamin, and I drink "Glaceau Vitamin Water Zero" which helps. (it's also really good for hangovers) It has electrolytes in it too which really helps.
I took Alli with my food, and I plainly expected side effects, but really I didn't get anything serious that's going to impair my ability to function. I even took a laxative last night, which is also another game of mine, I used to do it much more often before, but stopped for a very long time.
I only stopped because even without them I always had to go to the bathroom. Now I just have to make sure that I'm near a bathroom pretty often, which I always did before anyway.
I might take another laxative later, but I don't want to over do it right now. Even though I know that they won't make me lose weight, at least they will clean me out a little bit which always helps. I hate those crazy one day flush things, they make me crazy because there's nothing that you're allowed to have besides water... ugh.
Since I was a kid I've always been the worst at blowing up the bathroom, so I really don't think that any one's going to notice.
This morning when I woke up I didn't have any sudden urges to run to the bathroom.
My phone stopped working which peeved me a little bit, but it's my sister's old G1. So it's not like I paid hella money for it. I'll go to the store on the way home from work and have the people take a look and try out a new battery in it, otherwise I still have my old phone that I can use if I need to.
I also found out that my sister got in a fender bender with some old guy. It was his fault, but I'm surprised that she didn't say anything. Probably because she said that there is no damage, and she knew that I would run out there and find something. (I used to be a car inspector back in the day.)
Anyhoo, that's all the news that I have for the moment.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
When it comes to what I weigh I know that those thing fluctuate, but a laxative always seems to help. Also a lot of people think that they will wipe out all the nutrients, well I have been taking a daily vitamin, and I drink "Glaceau Vitamin Water Zero" which helps. (it's also really good for hangovers) It has electrolytes in it too which really helps.
I took Alli with my food, and I plainly expected side effects, but really I didn't get anything serious that's going to impair my ability to function. I even took a laxative last night, which is also another game of mine, I used to do it much more often before, but stopped for a very long time.
I only stopped because even without them I always had to go to the bathroom. Now I just have to make sure that I'm near a bathroom pretty often, which I always did before anyway.
I might take another laxative later, but I don't want to over do it right now. Even though I know that they won't make me lose weight, at least they will clean me out a little bit which always helps. I hate those crazy one day flush things, they make me crazy because there's nothing that you're allowed to have besides water... ugh.
Since I was a kid I've always been the worst at blowing up the bathroom, so I really don't think that any one's going to notice.
This morning when I woke up I didn't have any sudden urges to run to the bathroom.
My phone stopped working which peeved me a little bit, but it's my sister's old G1. So it's not like I paid hella money for it. I'll go to the store on the way home from work and have the people take a look and try out a new battery in it, otherwise I still have my old phone that I can use if I need to.
I also found out that my sister got in a fender bender with some old guy. It was his fault, but I'm surprised that she didn't say anything. Probably because she said that there is no damage, and she knew that I would run out there and find something. (I used to be a car inspector back in the day.)
Anyhoo, that's all the news that I have for the moment.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Crispy Chicken
Last night I made crispy chicken from "The America's Test Kitchen Family Cookbook-Third Edition"
It was quiet yummy. The recipe itself sounded a little bland so I added a few spices. Me being the amateur cook that I am didn't add too much because I have never actually fried chicken in this manor. Everything turned out great. My fiance's cousin even asked me what I used to make it. I didn't tell him everything that I added aside from the recipe, but that's my little secret.
Later this week after I go grocery shopping I plan to make another recipe. I'm going to start writing down a list of things that I need.
Hopefully my next recipe will be Beef Stroganoff. It's always been a favorite of mine and my sweetie's. I've just never made the recipe from this cookbook before.
I did go a wandering yesterday looking at cook books in Borders in Fremont, but I didn't see any that I really wanted for a price I wanted to pay.
I also found out that they closed the Barnes and Noble over there... boo. That was one of my favorite Barnes and Noble. Guess that now I have to go to Pleasanton.
Before I go to a regular book store I plan to go to a few good will stores, I always see cook books there. :)
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Later this week after I go grocery shopping I plan to make another recipe. I'm going to start writing down a list of things that I need.
Hopefully my next recipe will be Beef Stroganoff. It's always been a favorite of mine and my sweetie's. I've just never made the recipe from this cookbook before.
I did go a wandering yesterday looking at cook books in Borders in Fremont, but I didn't see any that I really wanted for a price I wanted to pay.
I also found out that they closed the Barnes and Noble over there... boo. That was one of my favorite Barnes and Noble. Guess that now I have to go to Pleasanton.
Before I go to a regular book store I plan to go to a few good will stores, I always see cook books there. :)
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Saturday, January 8, 2011
A Little More on Cooking
While growing up, my mom always cooked. When I was younger until about the age of 12 I loved helping her in the kitchen. She also had Breast Cancer when I was about 9 yrs old. So sometimes we ate out, others, I would help my dad cook, or cook something I already knew how to make. My sister (the one that lives with me) would sometimes help, or the oldest sister would too.
Most of the time it was me, or my mom in the kitchen. She also baked a lot too. For baking she had recipes, and for cooking she seemed to do everything by eye, I never even seemed to see a cookbook. Maybe it was because she was always cooking.
She never seemed to give anyone an actual recipe, but more of guidance in the kitchen.
I never really had a desire to cook anything until I was maybe 24, unfortunately my father had been in the hospital a lot for pneumonia, and then in the late part of that year my mom, because of cancer that had spread, and she passed away from it.
So I never really had much chance to share my cooking with them. My mom knew that I had been cooking once in a while for my boyfriend, (who is now my fiance) so at some point she bought me a cookbook. My mom had an amputation and was legally blind, so I know that both my sister were in on this.
My mom passed away right before Christmas that year, so when my sisters had a great look of anticipation on their faces, I didn't know why. When I opened the box with a cook book inside I almost cried. Not only did I want a cook book, I'd ogled that one so many times in the store, but never bought it, thinking it was for someone with much better culinary skills than me.
When the book got ruined I was horrified, I looked for it a few times, but could only find their baking edition, so ended up getting that instead. Then said forget it, it wasn't mean for me to use.
Now that I have it I want to start trying new recipes.
What I would really love is to have my mom's old recipe book, and go through it one recipe at a time, that would be my tribute to her.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Most of the time it was me, or my mom in the kitchen. She also baked a lot too. For baking she had recipes, and for cooking she seemed to do everything by eye, I never even seemed to see a cookbook. Maybe it was because she was always cooking.
She never seemed to give anyone an actual recipe, but more of guidance in the kitchen.
I never really had a desire to cook anything until I was maybe 24, unfortunately my father had been in the hospital a lot for pneumonia, and then in the late part of that year my mom, because of cancer that had spread, and she passed away from it.
So I never really had much chance to share my cooking with them. My mom knew that I had been cooking once in a while for my boyfriend, (who is now my fiance) so at some point she bought me a cookbook. My mom had an amputation and was legally blind, so I know that both my sister were in on this.
My mom passed away right before Christmas that year, so when my sisters had a great look of anticipation on their faces, I didn't know why. When I opened the box with a cook book inside I almost cried. Not only did I want a cook book, I'd ogled that one so many times in the store, but never bought it, thinking it was for someone with much better culinary skills than me.
When the book got ruined I was horrified, I looked for it a few times, but could only find their baking edition, so ended up getting that instead. Then said forget it, it wasn't mean for me to use.
Now that I have it I want to start trying new recipes.
What I would really love is to have my mom's old recipe book, and go through it one recipe at a time, that would be my tribute to her.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
More on Vegetable Soup and Other Updates
So yes I finished the Vegetable Soup last night, it was very good.
I was slightly irritated with my fiance though, sometimes I feel as if going out of my way for him, just doesn't matter and I don't want to do it, but I was also going out of the way for me because I wanted to make this particular recipe.
I called to let him know that it was done because he had gone over to a friend's house with his cousin. He called back 20 mins later saying that he would be home in 45 mins. He wanted to let it simmer a while. I found that a bit insulting because I went out of my way to make it. It hurt my feelings.
I go by the directions and let it simmer for quite a while. He was busy "drinking" at a friends house and I knew it. To be honest I'm tired of him going to his friends house always in the evening to "Hang out" I know that he's just drinking. My sister and his niece don't like it because he's sort of a smart ass, and thinks he;s always right. This bothers me to, because I know he's not always right, he's just an ass.
I'm done arguing with him about his being right, I just plainly am done talking to him when he drinks, I don't want to hear it.
Either way on the end his niece said that it was really good, and so did he, I believe her but he was drunk and I think he may have been kissing my ass because he knew that I was mad at him. His cousin didn't give an opinion, but he was a little buzzed too. My sister was working late so I made sure that there was some saved for her, and she's going to try it a little bit later when she wakes up.
As for my weigh in this morning it's exactly the same. I've hardly had the time to walk, but have been cutting back on my food intake, and the fat grams in it, no help yet.
So last night after dinner I thought about doing the fast,and I'm going to try. I haven't had anything but water this morning, lets see if I can keep this up for a little bit. I;m hoping for at least 36 hours. I'll just use it as a jump starter for me losing weight, the hard part is keeping it off.
My sister is mad at me because I bought a scale, she says that it's evil. Last year she lost a ton of weight, and 3 pants sizes, she's kept the same pants sizes, but the weight came back, I would have to say that it's muscle. I told her that I'm sorry she doesn't like it, but I should be able to check my weight whenever I want. No one told her she has to, but it should be a regular ritual for people to check their weight. Otherwise it may get out of control.
I like many people wish that it was easier to maintain a healthy weight, but it's not, so I have to face up to the truth.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
I was slightly irritated with my fiance though, sometimes I feel as if going out of my way for him, just doesn't matter and I don't want to do it, but I was also going out of the way for me because I wanted to make this particular recipe.
I called to let him know that it was done because he had gone over to a friend's house with his cousin. He called back 20 mins later saying that he would be home in 45 mins. He wanted to let it simmer a while. I found that a bit insulting because I went out of my way to make it. It hurt my feelings.
I go by the directions and let it simmer for quite a while. He was busy "drinking" at a friends house and I knew it. To be honest I'm tired of him going to his friends house always in the evening to "Hang out" I know that he's just drinking. My sister and his niece don't like it because he's sort of a smart ass, and thinks he;s always right. This bothers me to, because I know he's not always right, he's just an ass.
I'm done arguing with him about his being right, I just plainly am done talking to him when he drinks, I don't want to hear it.
Either way on the end his niece said that it was really good, and so did he, I believe her but he was drunk and I think he may have been kissing my ass because he knew that I was mad at him. His cousin didn't give an opinion, but he was a little buzzed too. My sister was working late so I made sure that there was some saved for her, and she's going to try it a little bit later when she wakes up.
As for my weigh in this morning it's exactly the same. I've hardly had the time to walk, but have been cutting back on my food intake, and the fat grams in it, no help yet.
So last night after dinner I thought about doing the fast,and I'm going to try. I haven't had anything but water this morning, lets see if I can keep this up for a little bit. I;m hoping for at least 36 hours. I'll just use it as a jump starter for me losing weight, the hard part is keeping it off.
My sister is mad at me because I bought a scale, she says that it's evil. Last year she lost a ton of weight, and 3 pants sizes, she's kept the same pants sizes, but the weight came back, I would have to say that it's muscle. I told her that I'm sorry she doesn't like it, but I should be able to check my weight whenever I want. No one told her she has to, but it should be a regular ritual for people to check their weight. Otherwise it may get out of control.
I like many people wish that it was easier to maintain a healthy weight, but it's not, so I have to face up to the truth.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Friday, January 7, 2011
Vegetable Soup
So my day went by pretty quickly. First I went with my sweetie to an appt. Then after taking him home I ran some errands.
I made sure that I bought the ingredients for a recipe that I found. Then I went to the mall for a little while. I tried on a few pairs of jeans, but didn't find any that I really liked. I'm seriously thinking about a 36 hour fast that I read about. I also know that it would be really hard because I'm such a big coffee drinker.
Speaking of coffee, this morning I found out that someone accidently cracked the coffee pot while cleaning it, and my fiance "forgot to tell me" I wasn't mad because I have an espresso machine, but I knew we were going through beans really fast and couldn't figure out why. He wants to buy a perculator, but I know that's going to be more expensive than a coffee pot, so I wish he'd told me so I could buy a regular one in the mean time.
So anyway, I went home, took a nap for about 2 hours. Then I got up to make dinner. Well when I was getting out all the ingredients I realized that I forgot a Diced Tomatoes and Frozen peas... oops. I didn't have anything that I could improvise with, so I ended up sending my niece to Target.
Luckily she's a really good girl, got everything, she took my car, and says that she loves driving it. I already know that she's a really good driver, so I've been thinking about adding her to my insurance, I have to wait and see though, might be really expensive.
Anyway, I'm still waiting for everything to simmer, but I chose to make Vegetable Soup from "The America's Test Kitchen Family Cookbook-Third edition"
It smells really yummy, and I think that I made a soup like this a long time ago, just can't remember right now. I have a few cookbooks, but not a ton, and there are plenty of recipe's to choose from. I had this one years ago, but then it got wet and ruined in the kitchen, so my oldest sister, and my dad. (she takes care of him) Got me a new one for this past Christmas. They new that I really wanted one because I loved the first one that my mom had given me.
So I guess that tomorrow or later tonight I will be back to let you know the results, and any good commentary that I get from the family!!!!!!
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
I made sure that I bought the ingredients for a recipe that I found. Then I went to the mall for a little while. I tried on a few pairs of jeans, but didn't find any that I really liked. I'm seriously thinking about a 36 hour fast that I read about. I also know that it would be really hard because I'm such a big coffee drinker.
Speaking of coffee, this morning I found out that someone accidently cracked the coffee pot while cleaning it, and my fiance "forgot to tell me" I wasn't mad because I have an espresso machine, but I knew we were going through beans really fast and couldn't figure out why. He wants to buy a perculator, but I know that's going to be more expensive than a coffee pot, so I wish he'd told me so I could buy a regular one in the mean time.
So anyway, I went home, took a nap for about 2 hours. Then I got up to make dinner. Well when I was getting out all the ingredients I realized that I forgot a Diced Tomatoes and Frozen peas... oops. I didn't have anything that I could improvise with, so I ended up sending my niece to Target.
Luckily she's a really good girl, got everything, she took my car, and says that she loves driving it. I already know that she's a really good driver, so I've been thinking about adding her to my insurance, I have to wait and see though, might be really expensive.
Anyway, I'm still waiting for everything to simmer, but I chose to make Vegetable Soup from "The America's Test Kitchen Family Cookbook-Third edition"
So I guess that tomorrow or later tonight I will be back to let you know the results, and any good commentary that I get from the family!!!!!!
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Last nights adventures
So last night I went with my older sister to a Raiin Wilson book signing in Mountain View. For his book "Soul Pancake"
It was so crowded in that little bookstore that I couldn't believe it, on top of that as soon as we walked in I knew that there was someone in the crowd that forgot to put deoderant on, but crowds and deoderant issues are to be expected I guess. Otherwise it was good.
I was a little disappointed at all the chaos, becuase we're short people and couldn't see a damn thing when he was talking. He was a nice guy, very friendly, and I learned a few things that I didn't know.
I of course didn't buy a book ahead of time, but my sister did, so she got hers signed. I wasn't to concerned about it at the moment, I'll just borrow her book when she's done with it and read it.
In a way I wish I had bought a book, I might go buy one just for the hell of it, I'm curious about it, heard it's a good coversation starter, and has some really good insights.
Anyhoo, then after getting through the masses of people standing around not knowing what to do we made our way back to the car, and went to In and Out.
That was ok, I had a cheeseburger and diet coke, knowing that I just ruined my diet... just have to keep on keeping on with it. The same fight. I was slightly disappointed in my cheeseburger too.. It wasn't cooked all the way. That's happened at a few In and Outs, it only bugs me because I've had burgers cooked that way make me sick before, so I'm a little paranoid about it.
After that we went home because she had to go to work. All in all it was a good trip, my sister was happy, and very excited to not only have her book signed but neet Raiin Wilson face to face. She even wore her Shrute farms hoodie. It was cute. When we were waiting in the line to get the books signed she had an unvoiced look of concern, probably worries about saying "Hi' to him. She has a tendency to say something stupid when she meets celebrities, or forget her name. All went well though. The excited look of wonderment on her face when she walked away from his table with her book signed, is all I needed to make me feel satisfied, and say "Yes this was a good trip."
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
It was so crowded in that little bookstore that I couldn't believe it, on top of that as soon as we walked in I knew that there was someone in the crowd that forgot to put deoderant on, but crowds and deoderant issues are to be expected I guess. Otherwise it was good.
I was a little disappointed at all the chaos, becuase we're short people and couldn't see a damn thing when he was talking. He was a nice guy, very friendly, and I learned a few things that I didn't know.
I of course didn't buy a book ahead of time, but my sister did, so she got hers signed. I wasn't to concerned about it at the moment, I'll just borrow her book when she's done with it and read it.
In a way I wish I had bought a book, I might go buy one just for the hell of it, I'm curious about it, heard it's a good coversation starter, and has some really good insights.
Anyhoo, then after getting through the masses of people standing around not knowing what to do we made our way back to the car, and went to In and Out.
That was ok, I had a cheeseburger and diet coke, knowing that I just ruined my diet... just have to keep on keeping on with it. The same fight. I was slightly disappointed in my cheeseburger too.. It wasn't cooked all the way. That's happened at a few In and Outs, it only bugs me because I've had burgers cooked that way make me sick before, so I'm a little paranoid about it.
After that we went home because she had to go to work. All in all it was a good trip, my sister was happy, and very excited to not only have her book signed but neet Raiin Wilson face to face. She even wore her Shrute farms hoodie. It was cute. When we were waiting in the line to get the books signed she had an unvoiced look of concern, probably worries about saying "Hi' to him. She has a tendency to say something stupid when she meets celebrities, or forget her name. All went well though. The excited look of wonderment on her face when she walked away from his table with her book signed, is all I needed to make me feel satisfied, and say "Yes this was a good trip."
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
David Boreanaz
Ok maybe I'm late reading this but he has a sexual harassment law suit against him now? Wow... To be honest I don't care. I still think he's hot. I'd love to be an extra on Bones. (even though I know that my chances are slim to none.) I've dreamed of acting on that show side by side with him. Of course I have no acting experience accept for 8th grade drama, and the fact I would be beet red because "Omg, he looked at me" I of course love Emily Deschanel, and the rest of the cast, and would be excited to be around any of them.
When it comes to sexual harassment, I've dreamed of a kiss with him, but who hasn't. When it comes down to it, I'd have to say "No David, I can't kiss you unless it's in the script, I love my fiance too much."
If I were single, I'd say "Go ahead David, kiss me." Only because I dont have an acting career to lose anyway.:)
Anyway, I think that if someone wants help with their career obviously they need to earn it themselves.
He's a man, and yes I agree that grabbing a womans breast and trying to kiss her is wrong especially when they don't want it, or you know, you;re married to another woman. Either way some men out there need to learn that they have to earn touching rights with women too.
Men are pigs, but that doesn't make them bad people. Sometimes they make mistakes and need to live with them, they need to learn to think like a woman sometimes, and stop, think about the consequences of what they're doing, how will this effect their future, and why it's hurting someone else.
My next question is was there something that she did to lead him on? From personal experience I have learned that as a woman, sometimes we tend to lead men on, or make them think they will get the prize, when in our minds we don't know that we're doing it.We flirt, bat our eye lashes, give a sexy smile, because we're talking to a man that we think may have the power to help us in some way.
Either way of looking at it, reading about David Boreanaz's sexual harassment suit made me die a little inside. I loved him in Buffy, Angel, and Bones. That and if you're having spousal issues, seek therapy, not the arms of another woman. The world of fans that you have out there would much rather hear that you went to therapy, then got slapped by a law suit of any kind.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
When it comes to sexual harassment, I've dreamed of a kiss with him, but who hasn't. When it comes down to it, I'd have to say "No David, I can't kiss you unless it's in the script, I love my fiance too much."
If I were single, I'd say "Go ahead David, kiss me." Only because I dont have an acting career to lose anyway.:)
Anyway, I think that if someone wants help with their career obviously they need to earn it themselves.
He's a man, and yes I agree that grabbing a womans breast and trying to kiss her is wrong especially when they don't want it, or you know, you;re married to another woman. Either way some men out there need to learn that they have to earn touching rights with women too.
Men are pigs, but that doesn't make them bad people. Sometimes they make mistakes and need to live with them, they need to learn to think like a woman sometimes, and stop, think about the consequences of what they're doing, how will this effect their future, and why it's hurting someone else.
My next question is was there something that she did to lead him on? From personal experience I have learned that as a woman, sometimes we tend to lead men on, or make them think they will get the prize, when in our minds we don't know that we're doing it.We flirt, bat our eye lashes, give a sexy smile, because we're talking to a man that we think may have the power to help us in some way.
Either way of looking at it, reading about David Boreanaz's sexual harassment suit made me die a little inside. I loved him in Buffy, Angel, and Bones. That and if you're having spousal issues, seek therapy, not the arms of another woman. The world of fans that you have out there would much rather hear that you went to therapy, then got slapped by a law suit of any kind.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Making a List
Looks like tonight I won't be making dinner. I'm going to some event with my sister.
Hopefully I will have a good time, and maybe try out a few new recipe's this weekend. It all depends on time and money.
This afternoon while I sit in traffic I'm going to come up with a list of goals, short term and long term.
For right now all that I have is, my next goal of trying one new recipe in the next week.
As for my longer term goal is to lose the next 5 lbs that will put me at 133lbs.
Looks like I am booked for the rest of the evening, but if I get the chance when I get home, maybe I will have more to blog about.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Hopefully I will have a good time, and maybe try out a few new recipe's this weekend. It all depends on time and money.
This afternoon while I sit in traffic I'm going to come up with a list of goals, short term and long term.
For right now all that I have is, my next goal of trying one new recipe in the next week.
As for my longer term goal is to lose the next 5 lbs that will put me at 133lbs.
Looks like I am booked for the rest of the evening, but if I get the chance when I get home, maybe I will have more to blog about.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Reality Shows
I'm beginning to think that blogging is addictive. :P
My thoughts in this blog are about reality shows. Why is it that today society will watch and ultimately pay for these overly dramatic reality show? It's as if we don't already have enough drama in our lives, and watching others do stupid things on TV make us feel better about ourselves..
It's obvious that people of the world today have almost no self respect,or respect for others, let alone self esteem or pride.
Why would you want to be on a reality show and let them show footage of you acting like a slut, or using people? It's because you're getting paid big money (which you're probably gonna waste on some expensive ass clothes you don't really care about) to act like an asshole.
Why can't you get off of your lazy asses and go to work like the rest of the world? You say that you don't care about what other people think, yet you do these stupid celebrity stunts to get attention, knowing that in the end you will get either praise or criticism, and you're fine with that because of the money.
I have seen some celebrities that use their status for a good cause. Like Reese Witherspoon doing the Avon walk for Cancer. That's an example of a celebrity that is trying to good, and has a great reputation. There are others as well.
It does seem like most of them just come out with perfumes, and brands, but never seem to benefit other people, accept for themselves.
It's pretty sad when we watch people, just waiting for them to fail, the only difference is that they do less, make more money, and their failure seems to be much more catastrophic than our own, because they tend to dig their holes deeper due to their popularity.
If I made anywhere near the amount of money that reality TV stars do, I would be living a better life, but I would be thankful for it, and not just take advantage or the situation. I would put money away, take care of my family, and myself. There are causes that I may donate to, or I know some people that are seriously in need, I would help them, get them the things that they need to survive.
Bottom line I think that reality show stars are ridiculous. I can't understand why people want to pay them to do the things that they do, when there are millions of people out there that seem to have the same amount of stupidity that they do, but their just not getting paid for it.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
My thoughts in this blog are about reality shows. Why is it that today society will watch and ultimately pay for these overly dramatic reality show? It's as if we don't already have enough drama in our lives, and watching others do stupid things on TV make us feel better about ourselves..
It's obvious that people of the world today have almost no self respect,or respect for others, let alone self esteem or pride.
Why would you want to be on a reality show and let them show footage of you acting like a slut, or using people? It's because you're getting paid big money (which you're probably gonna waste on some expensive ass clothes you don't really care about) to act like an asshole.
Why can't you get off of your lazy asses and go to work like the rest of the world? You say that you don't care about what other people think, yet you do these stupid celebrity stunts to get attention, knowing that in the end you will get either praise or criticism, and you're fine with that because of the money.
I have seen some celebrities that use their status for a good cause. Like Reese Witherspoon doing the Avon walk for Cancer. That's an example of a celebrity that is trying to good, and has a great reputation. There are others as well.
It does seem like most of them just come out with perfumes, and brands, but never seem to benefit other people, accept for themselves.
It's pretty sad when we watch people, just waiting for them to fail, the only difference is that they do less, make more money, and their failure seems to be much more catastrophic than our own, because they tend to dig their holes deeper due to their popularity.
If I made anywhere near the amount of money that reality TV stars do, I would be living a better life, but I would be thankful for it, and not just take advantage or the situation. I would put money away, take care of my family, and myself. There are causes that I may donate to, or I know some people that are seriously in need, I would help them, get them the things that they need to survive.
Bottom line I think that reality show stars are ridiculous. I can't understand why people want to pay them to do the things that they do, when there are millions of people out there that seem to have the same amount of stupidity that they do, but their just not getting paid for it.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Gossipy Girlfriend
So I told you that I would blog about the gossip, well, how can I put this... since this is just something that irritates me, I've gonna leave things a little vague when it comes to names. I just gotta get it out of my system.
My fiance and I have several friends. I met a girlfriend of one of them maybe a year ago. The first time I met her was at a party, and we really didn't talk that much.
Then maybe 6 months ago she was over at our place with her boyfriend. I talked with her and we talked about girly stuff and makeup. I gave her a few tips here and there.
I've been selling makeup, and invited her to a party. While she was there I asked her how another friend of ours was doing, and she perked up and started talking about how the other friend has been supposedly working out, but she thinks she's cheating on her boyfriend, and how she's thinks she's losing weight the wrong way.... gossiping, all I wanted to know is how is our other friend doing?
In oct a friend was throwing another party and she was there, she was very drunk and yelling at her boyfriend calling him names saying he was just like his loser dead father (that she never met.) So me and a girlfriend of mine pulled her away for a moment. She went on to tell us that she loves him, but isn't sure about things, and lives with him because she knows there's a steady income. I just wanted her to stop yelling because I didn't want someone to call the cops. (Maybe trying to lend a hand and calm down the drunk at the party is considered getting to involved)
Then about 2 months ago her boyfriend started having some emotional issues. I'd heard about them through my group of friends. and said "Oh well that sucks" I do care, but I'm not close to the guy, and I don't think I belong in the situation, so I kept my nose out of it.
A few weeks later I come home from work and gossipy girlfriend is there watching tv with my niece in the living room. I was like ok? (I just wanted to relax after work, not really in the mood for company)
I'd just bought the Ali, to take a look and do some planning before I started taking it. She saw that I was reading the booklets and was telling me that I don't need to lose weight that I am fine that way that I am, etc. It's my business. So I put the booklets away, and decided to go for a walk.
She of course wanted to go with me. She started telling me all about her boyfriend and his progress. I figured maybe she just wanted to let it all out or something. Then she said something that really irritated me.
That she was kinda mad at her boyfriend's mom for not helping more because she was too tired from the cancer.( His mom has had cancer twice, and is in remission, I have great respect for her. My mom had cancer when I was a kid, and passed away from cancer 3 yrs ago)
I let her know that I would never get upset with someone or mad at them because of cancer, that's sickening.
She also told me that his mom had been on the phone with my fiance talking (he calls to check on her sometimes), and that he wanted to talk to her, and she told him how she was stressed out, so he invited her over to hang out and have dinner.
Well when the walk was over she came in the house with me, by that time my fiance had finished making dinner, so we ate.
Then she went home, and we got ready for bed.
I talked to my fiance about how my day at work was, and the things that bothered me about our walk. Then he let me know that she called him crying and asked to come over.This I found to be a bit puzzling. Then he asked me why I didn't tell him I was inviting her to stay for dinner.
I told him that I didn't and what she had said. So we decided to try to keep our distance.
Yesterday, she called me saying that her boyfriend was having more problems, and that she felt that he life was in danger, could she spend the night?
This is where I really struggled, because I am really against abuse, no matter what the situation. So I called and called my fiance, but his phone was off, (because it was dead) so I called his nieces phone to talk to him, and he wasn't too keen on the idea either, because with everything that she's said and done, or twisted (word wise) we don't feel that we can trust her. Honestly I did feel a little guilty for saying no, but 1st of all, she's lied to my fiance and I before, 2nd of all, we know that if the situation was that bad she has other friends that she's a lot closer with she could call, or could go to a shelter.
So I text her letting her know she couldn't spend the night, and she told me my fiance told her she could, that she talked to him a few mins ago. She doesn't have his nieces number, so I know she didn't call him, so I told her I talked to him and the answer is NO.
I called back my fiance, on his nieces phone, and he said he hasn't spoken with her at all....WTH?
Later we found out that she talked to a few other mutual friends, and managed to make other arrangements, but something is still really off putting about this girl, I feel like she's trying to get too close to me for the wrong reasons.
For the time being I'm trying to avoid gossipy girlfriend, and I hope the situation gets better for her boyfriend. I really don't want to confront her about this, I just want to blog, and live my life, not have to worry about people getting too involved.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
My fiance and I have several friends. I met a girlfriend of one of them maybe a year ago. The first time I met her was at a party, and we really didn't talk that much.
Then maybe 6 months ago she was over at our place with her boyfriend. I talked with her and we talked about girly stuff and makeup. I gave her a few tips here and there.
I've been selling makeup, and invited her to a party. While she was there I asked her how another friend of ours was doing, and she perked up and started talking about how the other friend has been supposedly working out, but she thinks she's cheating on her boyfriend, and how she's thinks she's losing weight the wrong way.... gossiping, all I wanted to know is how is our other friend doing?
In oct a friend was throwing another party and she was there, she was very drunk and yelling at her boyfriend calling him names saying he was just like his loser dead father (that she never met.) So me and a girlfriend of mine pulled her away for a moment. She went on to tell us that she loves him, but isn't sure about things, and lives with him because she knows there's a steady income. I just wanted her to stop yelling because I didn't want someone to call the cops. (Maybe trying to lend a hand and calm down the drunk at the party is considered getting to involved)
Then about 2 months ago her boyfriend started having some emotional issues. I'd heard about them through my group of friends. and said "Oh well that sucks" I do care, but I'm not close to the guy, and I don't think I belong in the situation, so I kept my nose out of it.
A few weeks later I come home from work and gossipy girlfriend is there watching tv with my niece in the living room. I was like ok? (I just wanted to relax after work, not really in the mood for company)
I'd just bought the Ali, to take a look and do some planning before I started taking it. She saw that I was reading the booklets and was telling me that I don't need to lose weight that I am fine that way that I am, etc. It's my business. So I put the booklets away, and decided to go for a walk.
She of course wanted to go with me. She started telling me all about her boyfriend and his progress. I figured maybe she just wanted to let it all out or something. Then she said something that really irritated me.
That she was kinda mad at her boyfriend's mom for not helping more because she was too tired from the cancer.( His mom has had cancer twice, and is in remission, I have great respect for her. My mom had cancer when I was a kid, and passed away from cancer 3 yrs ago)
I let her know that I would never get upset with someone or mad at them because of cancer, that's sickening.
She also told me that his mom had been on the phone with my fiance talking (he calls to check on her sometimes), and that he wanted to talk to her, and she told him how she was stressed out, so he invited her over to hang out and have dinner.
Well when the walk was over she came in the house with me, by that time my fiance had finished making dinner, so we ate.
Then she went home, and we got ready for bed.
I talked to my fiance about how my day at work was, and the things that bothered me about our walk. Then he let me know that she called him crying and asked to come over.This I found to be a bit puzzling. Then he asked me why I didn't tell him I was inviting her to stay for dinner.
I told him that I didn't and what she had said. So we decided to try to keep our distance.
Yesterday, she called me saying that her boyfriend was having more problems, and that she felt that he life was in danger, could she spend the night?
This is where I really struggled, because I am really against abuse, no matter what the situation. So I called and called my fiance, but his phone was off, (because it was dead) so I called his nieces phone to talk to him, and he wasn't too keen on the idea either, because with everything that she's said and done, or twisted (word wise) we don't feel that we can trust her. Honestly I did feel a little guilty for saying no, but 1st of all, she's lied to my fiance and I before, 2nd of all, we know that if the situation was that bad she has other friends that she's a lot closer with she could call, or could go to a shelter.
So I text her letting her know she couldn't spend the night, and she told me my fiance told her she could, that she talked to him a few mins ago. She doesn't have his nieces number, so I know she didn't call him, so I told her I talked to him and the answer is NO.
I called back my fiance, on his nieces phone, and he said he hasn't spoken with her at all....WTH?
Later we found out that she talked to a few other mutual friends, and managed to make other arrangements, but something is still really off putting about this girl, I feel like she's trying to get too close to me for the wrong reasons.
For the time being I'm trying to avoid gossipy girlfriend, and I hope the situation gets better for her boyfriend. I really don't want to confront her about this, I just want to blog, and live my life, not have to worry about people getting too involved.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
Starting a new adventure with a rambling
Good morning,
I'm Little Miss Sunshine! Well not exactly. This is my name for the moment. I just turned 28 right before the new year, and I live in the Bay Area. I live with my fiance, one of my older sisters, My fiance's niece, and his cousin.
Yesterday I watched Julie and Julia. I was indeed inspired to start my own blog. Not just for cooking, but a lot of different things. Life, opinions, and struggles. I'm not going to go cooking recipe's as a goal. (even though I do love to cook, and would like to try more new recipes) My main goal here is to have an outlet for my life. Something that I feel I can follow through with. Lately it seems that I don't follow through with anything, so this is a good start. I don't really even want to share this with people close to me. Sometimes I find it easier to talk to a stranger rather than people that I know.
I have learned that I have a lot of wonderful friends and family that I love and trust, and there are just other people in my life that I have met, that for some reason love to stir up some shit, try to gossip, and involve themselves in other people's business, and try to twist their words. They do this because it makes them feel better about themselves, and their own situation. So that kinda makes me want to share my blog with a stranger.
I try to be a good person. I am a person of limited means, like the rest of the economy right now. I go to work every day and try to enjoy the little things. I've also learned that these people that try to gossip, also try to take advantage of you if you're a nice person, they try to make you look like the bad guy. (this is all a whole different blog that I will write later.)
I guess that I should start with telling you readers out there more about me. First of all I have a few on going goals in my life at the moment. I would like to start cooking more recipes. I used to love to bake, I would make all these beautiful decorated cakes, cupcakes, cookies, etc and sell them. I stopped doing that for a few reasons.
I was never hell bent on making a ton of money, or worrying about what other people wanted.I just wanted to do what I wanted, build some skills. Then friends, co-workers, and people that I have on my fb page started asking if they could make orders, etc. Sure I don't mind making an extra buck or two. (I'll still make cakes for really close friends and family when I have the time.)
I noticed that things changed, people started getting a little over bearing. They wanted 2 dozen cupcakes, and 2 dozen cookies (keep in mind it takes time to decorate etc.) and wanted me to bring them to work (which is 20 miles away), on my off day, and then would stand me up, or expect me to cater to them. Then get mad when I said that I don't have the time, or couldn't make it because I have other things to do outside of work. They started coming up with all these idea's for me, and didn't want to pay fair prices for hard work.
So I've stopped baking for the time being. I would like to experiment with other area's of cooking, or technical recipe's. I also don't want to cater to other people right now.
That brings me to my second of all. I have a lot going on aside from my 40 hr a wk job. I'd like to have the time to do the things that I want to do. After cooking dinner every night, trying to fit in exercise, after a long day at the office and a long commute home, it's kinda hard.
Exercise and losing weight it also another journey that I've just embarked on, so that's also going to be a part of my blog. I just started taking Ali, and have been trying to walk regularly. I started at 145 lbs and week and a half ago, and now I am 138 lbs. So I have been seeing progress. I try to eat healthy low fat meals, but when I fail I stick to my back up plan of "everything in moderation" so if I eat something bad, I don't over eat it, and get off of my ass and work a little harder the next day.
This brings me to the end of my rambling/introduction. Don't worry soon enough I will post blogs about particular subjects, updates, and experience's.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
I'm Little Miss Sunshine! Well not exactly. This is my name for the moment. I just turned 28 right before the new year, and I live in the Bay Area. I live with my fiance, one of my older sisters, My fiance's niece, and his cousin.
Yesterday I watched Julie and Julia. I was indeed inspired to start my own blog. Not just for cooking, but a lot of different things. Life, opinions, and struggles. I'm not going to go cooking recipe's as a goal. (even though I do love to cook, and would like to try more new recipes) My main goal here is to have an outlet for my life. Something that I feel I can follow through with. Lately it seems that I don't follow through with anything, so this is a good start. I don't really even want to share this with people close to me. Sometimes I find it easier to talk to a stranger rather than people that I know.
I have learned that I have a lot of wonderful friends and family that I love and trust, and there are just other people in my life that I have met, that for some reason love to stir up some shit, try to gossip, and involve themselves in other people's business, and try to twist their words. They do this because it makes them feel better about themselves, and their own situation. So that kinda makes me want to share my blog with a stranger.
I try to be a good person. I am a person of limited means, like the rest of the economy right now. I go to work every day and try to enjoy the little things. I've also learned that these people that try to gossip, also try to take advantage of you if you're a nice person, they try to make you look like the bad guy. (this is all a whole different blog that I will write later.)
I guess that I should start with telling you readers out there more about me. First of all I have a few on going goals in my life at the moment. I would like to start cooking more recipes. I used to love to bake, I would make all these beautiful decorated cakes, cupcakes, cookies, etc and sell them. I stopped doing that for a few reasons.
I was never hell bent on making a ton of money, or worrying about what other people wanted.I just wanted to do what I wanted, build some skills. Then friends, co-workers, and people that I have on my fb page started asking if they could make orders, etc. Sure I don't mind making an extra buck or two. (I'll still make cakes for really close friends and family when I have the time.)
I noticed that things changed, people started getting a little over bearing. They wanted 2 dozen cupcakes, and 2 dozen cookies (keep in mind it takes time to decorate etc.) and wanted me to bring them to work (which is 20 miles away), on my off day, and then would stand me up, or expect me to cater to them. Then get mad when I said that I don't have the time, or couldn't make it because I have other things to do outside of work. They started coming up with all these idea's for me, and didn't want to pay fair prices for hard work.
So I've stopped baking for the time being. I would like to experiment with other area's of cooking, or technical recipe's. I also don't want to cater to other people right now.
That brings me to my second of all. I have a lot going on aside from my 40 hr a wk job. I'd like to have the time to do the things that I want to do. After cooking dinner every night, trying to fit in exercise, after a long day at the office and a long commute home, it's kinda hard.
Exercise and losing weight it also another journey that I've just embarked on, so that's also going to be a part of my blog. I just started taking Ali, and have been trying to walk regularly. I started at 145 lbs and week and a half ago, and now I am 138 lbs. So I have been seeing progress. I try to eat healthy low fat meals, but when I fail I stick to my back up plan of "everything in moderation" so if I eat something bad, I don't over eat it, and get off of my ass and work a little harder the next day.
This brings me to the end of my rambling/introduction. Don't worry soon enough I will post blogs about particular subjects, updates, and experience's.
TTYL,
Little Miss Sunshine
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